De Colores
the realization that we are being loved by God in a way that is unparalleled and unconditional, creates in our inner self, a feeling which is like an incredible rainbow.
the realization that we are being loved by God in a way that is unparalleled and unconditional, creates in our inner self, a feeling which is like an incredible rainbow.
This I can only explain as an act of Grace from my God to me, because I certainly didn’t deserve it and I did nothing to receive or even expect it. He gave it to me when I most needed it when I most needed Him.
What I learned about Sin and Hell prevented me from having a Loving and Trusting relationship with God. How could I ever trust a God that condemned his favorite Angel to Hell, surely I would be doomed as well and I knew what was “down there.”
I had a therapist that suggested that being sober was equivalent to someone telling me to be Russian today. It was as foreign to me as being a different nationality. Every day was like walking on Shattered Glass, I felt like the foundation of my existence, so tentative, could cave at any moment.
If you love me and are trying to help me, you should get help for yourself because you are the LAST person in the world that will be able to help me, EVER. Try to get that before you help kill both of us.
She reminds me of the other side of me. She is the drunk for my sober, the despair for my joy, the dark side of my light that shines so bright, and she is the evil side of my grace.