I see the words “God, as I understand HIM” and my eyes light up as I smile I broadly because I do understand just how much He loves me and I hear the word God and I feel warm and protected and I absolutely know that He is and all that He is.
5. Help Someone – You mean instead of myself? I didn’t want to waste my time going to that recovery center and listening to those girls go on and on sharing their pasts. I was too busy for that and I had much better things to do! But, I did it, like or not and something began to happened to me every time I went, I began to feel useful for the first time in my life.
I had a therapist that suggested that being sober was equivalent to someone telling me to be Russian today. It was as foreign to me as being a different nationality. Every day was like walking on Shattered Glass, I felt like the foundation of my existence, so tentative, could cave at any moment.